Can't Let Go...

I was supposed to meet Shuxian for lunch at Commonwealth, at 12:30pm. Got back from airport at 8, set my alarm to go off at 11. Unfortunately, the only alarm I heard was when Shuxian called me, and it was 12:30pm already. Ended up not going today. *sigh*

As I lay on the sofa, I can't help but think of back when things were so good. I was really really happy and contented. I thought things could never be bad anymore. I thought it's gonna be forever. I remember waking up to see you sleeping, seeing you breathing, your smell so... so you. And I could just sit there and look at you while you slept... except somehow everytime I do that, it seems you'd wake up soon after.

Obviously experience hasn't gotten through my thick head. If something is too good to be true, it probably is. Ha... Common cliche in the photographic community. Never expected it to apply in real life too.

I miss you very much, you know? I still cry my nights to sleep... =( Feel so pathetic. Feel so lame. So lame.



"It still feels like our first night together;
Feels like the first kiss,
It's getting better baby, no one can better this,
Still holding on, you're still the one.
First time our eyes met, same feeling I get,
Only feels much stronger, I wanna love you longer.
You still turn the fire on.

So if you're feeling lonely, don't!
You're the only one I'll ever want.
I only want to make it good,
So if I love you a little more than I should...

Please forgive me, I know not what I do.
Please forgive me, I can't stop loving you.
Don't deny me this pain I'm going through.
Please forgive me, if I need you like I do.
Please believe me,
Every word I say is true.
Please forgive me, I can't stop loving you.

Still feels like our best times are together.
Feels like the first touch,
Still getting closer baby,
Can't get close enough.
Still holding on,
You're still number one.

I remember the smell of your skin,
I remember everything;
I remember all the moves,
I remember you, yeah.
I remember the nights,
You know I still do.

The one thing I'm sure of,
Is the way we make love.
The one thing I depend on
Is for us to stay strong.
With every word and every breath I'm praying,

That's why I'm saying.."

-Bryan Adams: Please Forgive Me