Life... *sigh*

Heyo...

So I assembled my mini Billy bookcase this afternoon after lunch. Shifted my Christian books to it. Hmm... only a few. Will shift more books to it once I figure out how I want to seperate my books. Probably serious reads and lalala reads...

Anyways, I was supposed to meet my aunt for dinner. Yesterday she said 6+ or 7 like that. So around 6, I walked to AMK central to await her call. Meanwhile, I went around to look at remote controlled fans for my room.

At 7pm, I called my aunt, and she was like, "I tried calling your house but nobody answered. Anyway, I wanted to tell you today cannot make it, change to tomorrow." But I've got Captain's Ball tmr, so I didn't wanna meet her after that. Then she say then next time lor.

Well, all is not lost. I got my 2 purple pens from Popular with my sister's Popular card (read: 10% off). Yay! Was contemplating between my photoalbum refills or getting another album. Then the auntie say December members got 20% discount. So since I don't print so much, I shall wait till December! Yay!

Bought 4 1.5L bottles of Coke and 1 of Sprite... all from Thailand I think, so it's only $1.05 each. Lugged it home, stopped by Sheng Shiong, bought eggs, vege, frozen prawns. Lugged EVERYTHING home (I walked) and started preparing my own dinner. I figured it's been some time since I had my unagi, so I shall make some Una Don today. Fusion jap and chinese style though. Haha! And this is what came out:


K, the Una Don was authentic enough, cf. restaurants. A tad too much light soy sauce though... and I should buy Kikoman ones instead of the standard cheapo chinese ones. Then again, I'm not one to gripe, so I suppose that's fine. The chinese dish is in the top left: xiao bai cai with oyster sauce & sesame oil. Haha! And well, if u consider the drink, it's western: Coca Cola! So dinner adds up to about... $3+? Definitely less than $4. Yay! Una Don set at that price... wonderful. =)

Ok, on to less happy things...

Whilst I was wandering about AMK Central just now, I started thinking again... and life really feels kinda empty. Feels kinda meaningless to just work to survive. And the feeling of there being much more than this haunts me again.

That's where Christians are different from the world I guess. We have a purpose: to spread the Good News! That's our mission! But I'm still holding back! I don't know why. I just don't FEEL right... maybe it's here that Satan is trying to pull us away... pull ME away from GOD.

Last Sunday, Daniel approached me asking if I would consider being part of the committee for the young adults ministry. He said he'd give me a couple of weeks to think it through. I said, yeah, gimme a couple of weeks. But now, I feel that I should serve somewhere. The past year, I've been giving the excuse that I'm not settled yet, and that should a job offer come up somewhere, I would go for it... and hopefully it'd be overseas. And because of that, I didn't want to commit to anything. But seeing that I've been here in Singapore for the past year, serving no where, something inside me says that it's time to start serving again... no matter how brief. Because it's through serving that you fellowship... like really fellowship. Not just "Hey, how's work been? Busy? How's life? So what do you do after work everyday? What do you do on weekends? Oh-h-h! I see I see... Hmm... ok..." Y'know what I mean?

That's also why I decided to go for Captain's Ball, even though Tiff & Pat can't make it. Of course, it's because I miss it so much too. Hahaha!

And while we're on the topic of Christians being different, it's really quite sad to know that the church is full of judgement, incompassion, hypocrites, and destructive gossipers. Of course, the church is a gathering of sinners, where the lowliest come for forgiveness and repentance. I know that the church is made up of imperfect people, that's why currently, every church is imperfect in their own way, and in GOD's way. But hey, sinners go to church to REPENT, to build people up, to read and learn GOD's word. Not go there as a congregation of sinners and continue doing sinful things and tearing people down.

Y'know, cartoons have alot of meaning in it. From cartoons (Teen Titans, specifically), I learnt that the greatest potential of evil always lies in the quiet ones... Likewise in the real world, it's always the simple, littler things that will cause our downfall. We don't murder, we don't rape, we don't steal, we don't worship idols... but we tell little lies to make ourselves sound better, we tell little lies to "not hurt someone as much", we gossip here and there to know what's going on in someone's life, we say it's out of concern, we start to share our concerns with more and more people except the one in question, we tell white lies out of goodwill, we say it's being tactful... etc etc etc etc...

A crumbling building begins with a small crack into which a plant seed has fallen into. As the plant grows, it widens the cracks bit by bit, bit by bit... you should know the rest.

"For whoever keeps the whole law and yet stumbles at just one point is guilty of breaking all of it."
-James 2:10

We got to be careful who we portray ourselves to be... even in church. I pray for the day I will have the courage to stand up to those who, having served in the church community for so long, have deviated in their goals and their focus. Till then, I can only pray that someone else will.

I hope the last couple of paragraphs didn't sound too off. Fact is, I'm quite tired now. It's 1:20am and I'm still typing here. And I just had a very hypothetical, very theoretical discussion with Joanna, so I'm kinda zonked right now. Heh.

Good night everyone.

P/S: As for Teen Titans, it was Slade talking to Raven about her potential to destroy the earth. Raven is on the good side, by the way.