The Days of My Life

I've missed you so very very much. I'm beginning to feel like I hate weekends, because it's when I don't get to chat with u. =( And you look almost sad in that lone photo of yourself. Are you ok? I really hope you're ok... I really wish I could share your burden... but I won't push you for it...

On the other hand, life has been cool, if not exciting, on my side of the world. Just received my new AA-powered torch, and it's damn bright for its size. And to make sure I tap its full potential, I bought rechargeable lithium AA's. Eugene got his torches too, but unfortunately, one of them is a dud upon further testing. Gonna get a new torch for that man. Louis got his 2 torches too, and I kinda think he expected them to be larger. =P Oops... Sorry Louis, if I had you expecting a single-AA torch to be any bigger than it needed to be.

I've been thinking about my camera gear. I don't need so many lenses, so maybe I should be selling some to fund a new purchase? *grin* Let's see...

I've got:

10-20mm f4-5.6
19-35mm f3.5-4.5
24-85mm f2.8-4
35-70mm f3.5-4.5
70-300mm f4.5-5.6

35mm f2
50mm f1.2
50mm f1.8
135mm f2.8

I could sell the 19-35 and definitely the 35-70, but together, they'd fetch less than $200. I could sell the 135 too, though that'd be quite useful sometimes, so I'll hold back on that. And I haven't really been using my 10-20, so I might sell that for say, $600? Together, the sale of these 3 lenses plus abit of top-up, I could get me a 10.5mm f2.8 Fisheye lens! Or maybe I should get me a compact camera... say, an LX3? I should ask Jenny if she gets any staff price discounts. =P But first, I have to sell my lenses.

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After service on Sunday, Auntie Christie started talking to me. And as usual, I felt abit embarrassed to say that I'm not doing anything now. So she told me it's ok to relax for awhile, but just remember not to slack too long. Then she said I could try relief teaching coz there's no committment and I could see if that's an area GOD wants me to go into. If it's not, I'm not obliged to stay on. If it is, I could sign up with NIE. I told her, yeah, I'll think about it.

Somehow, people have been telling me to try teaching. Do I look like a teacher? Let me count: 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7... yes, I think 7. 7 people have told me that I could try teaching coz they think it suits me. Does it really?

Maybe it's time I stopped slacking...

Web-Slinger

It's been a long time since I posted photos here... I was at the library with Joanna the other day, and while she was studying, I was reading some boh liao stuff, and I got bored and went to get a Spiderman comic to browse. Saw this picture and what Peter Parker said there in the white box was so what I felt...


I read somewhere that many people like Spiderman because he wears a full mask and you really have no idea how the face underneath looks like. On top of that, he's just a nerd/geek in school and really just a face in the crowd... a nobody. And people tend to be able to relate with him... secretly wanting to BE Spiderman, to be the one who's life is so heavily burdened by the moral and ethical dilemmas, to sacrifice so much for those he loves so deep.

I like Spiderman. I guess somewhere in me, I want to be him too... A lone soul in the midst of many... just another face in the crowd, yet with hidden burdens and secrets he can tell no one. Hmm... that does sound like me... kinda.



"There are days I love her so much I can't breathe..."

Why I Don't Watch TV

I think maybe I know why I rather watch documentaries and cartoons than watch dramas, movies, serials etc...

People love action. People love romance too. And somehow nowadays, in almost every kind of movie, be it action, adventure, science fiction, even horror movies... directors and producers tend to incorporate some form of romance in there. And more often than not, these romances end in a happy ending... and people will just go "awww..." and wish their love story was like that.

Maybe it's coz I know that it's so fake... that this doesn't happen in real life. Movies and shows nowadays are just grown-up fairytales... it just doesn't happen this way.

Or maybe it just doesn't happen this way to me, at least.

Sour grapes? I suppose you could say that about me.

Very very very sour grapes...

Nuts

I've missed u so terribly.

Sometimes I wonder what this is all for...

Just a little... uh-huh.

"You never cross my mind at all,
That's what I tell myself.
What we had has come and gone.
You're better off with someone else;
It's for the best, I know it is.
But I see you.
Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside.

And I turn around,
You're with him now.
I just can't figure it out.

Tell me why
You're so hard to forget.
Don't remind me
I'm not over it.
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth.
I'm just a little too not over you.

Memories,
Supposed to fade.
What's wrong with my heart?
Shake it off, let it go,
Didn't think it'd be this hard.
Should be strong,
Moving on,
But I see you.
Sometimes I try to hide
What I feel inside.

And I turn around,
You're with him now.
I just can't figure it out.

Tell me why
You're so hard to forget.
Don't remind me
I'm not over it.
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth.
I'm just a little too not over you.

Maybe I regret
Everything I said.
No way to take it all back.
Now I'm on my own.
How I let you go,
I'll never understand,
I'll never understand.

Tell me why
You're so hard to forget.
Don't remind me
I'm not over it.
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth.
I'm just a little too not over you.

Tell me why
You're so hard to forget.
Don't remind me
I'm not over it.
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth.
And I really don't know what to do.

I'm just a little too not over you,
Not over you."

-David Archuleta: A Little Too Not Over You



Hmm... a little too obvious?

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