+ =)

Sunday, October 26, 2008

My New Toy

So today was my first tryout of my D300. Took some macros, played with my 10-20mm Sigma, played with my 50mm f1.2... played with super high ISO (up to 6400), played with long exposure (one only, actually)... just had a feel of the camera for half a day. And though it's heavy by itself, when hung around the neck, the weight doesn't seem to be a bother... at least for today.

I wanted to poast some photos here, but I think wait till I'm more used to using a dSLR then I'll post nicer pics la.

Going out again tmr to take some more photos! Wonder where I shall go... hmm...

Friday, October 24, 2008

Grrrr...

I didn't get my camera.

Bloody store, when I reached there, they tell me all the quoted prices weren't inclusive of GST. They even tried to cheat me, want to give me a 4GB 133x CF card. Hello, I'm not a noob can. Everywhere else is including an 8GB 200x CF card AT LEAST!!!

And you can guess the store is run by who... *pffft*

I calculated, I should have just gotten my camera from that Sim Lim store, then gone on to buy a high-speed CF card from elsewhere. Total damage that will be incurred is $2030 for body and card.

The good part of the day is that I got my Sigma 10-20mm from Paul at $575. He said once he realized it was me, he didn't accept anymore offers. Haha! So nice!

The other thing was getting my slides back. Unfortunately, they were quite underexposed. The other day I asked the uncle at Ruby Photo, and he said, yes, cross-processed photos are usually overexposed. And since lomo cams are mostly f8 at 1/100 or 1/125, they'll almost always be underexposed, that's why their cross-processed results look acceptably exposed. No wonder my correctly exposed slides from my FM2n were grossly overexposed when I decided to cross-process them. Hai. Maybe I should've cross-processed my Fisheye films too...

Well, I'll see how things go. Tmr morning, I'll go Sim Lim and get just what I stated: D300 at $1950 and 8GB 200x CF card at $79.90. Then I can go shooting already...

Sickening man... to think I was so excited to get it today... I was even contemplating playing with the camera through the night man...

Surprises!

Today, I shall splurge on myself.

Take it as a very early Christmas present to myself. And a very expensive one.

I will buy my D300 today, at $2310.

Then I will sell off the original battery-grip (used for extending battery life and comfortable holding of the camera in the vertical position) for hopefully $330. Then my camera will cost $1980, inclusive of an 8GB CF card (cheapest priced at $79.90 at Sim Lim as of 23/10) and a bag, which I might probably sell too, hopefully at $40 or so? Then my camera would be the best value camera! Yeah!

Yesterday I went Sim Lim and found a shop selling the D300 ONLY for $1950. I very nearly bought it there and then but thought I needed to go home and do some more calculations. Turns out, the one that sells more expensive but has everything is the best value. Heng ah...

Anyways, I'd been wanting a certain lens for some time now... It's the Sigma 10-20mm. It's an ultra wide-angle lens. New one would cost about $700-$800? Used one would be about $600 or so. So I found this seller on ClubSnap selling for $570 and I contacted him. After a few SMSes, he this guy suddenly SMS saying "You're Kane from ORPC!" Hahaha! What the heck! Then I realized it was Paul Tjahjono. What a coincidence man! He upgraded from a Fuji S5 Pro to a D700! Can you believe it?! D700! Wah lau... I wish I had that man...

But the whole point of the matter is that it's so cool that I'll be buying a lens from someone I know. =) I'm sure he won't mind lowering the price, and I won't mind paying more, so it'll make for a very pleasant trade experience.

Oh, by the way, the highest bid now for my battery grip is $310. I'm happy enough to sell it as it is already, but I shall wait and see if anymore bids come in. Yay!

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

Lost

Y'know, life hasn't been the same emotionally. Everything I see, everywhere I go, everything I think of, you're there.

It's not even 20 days. *sigh* It felt like forever. It felt like I've been dragged along behind a sputtering truck.

Are you happier now? Please tell me you are. Because if you're not, then I dunno why we had to go our own ways...


"I can't sleep.
Everything I ever knew
Is a lie
Without you.

I can't breathe
When my heart is broke in two.
There's no beat
Without you.

You're not gone
But you're not here,
That's the way it seems tonight.
If we could try to end these wars,
I know that we can make it right,
Cause baby,

I don't wanna fight no more,
I forgot what we were fighting for.
And this loneliness that's in my heart
Won't let me be apart from you.

I don't wanna have to try,
Girl, to live without you in my life,
So, I'm hoping we can start tonight,
Cause I don't wanna fight
No more.

How can I leave
When everything that I adore,
And everything I'm living for,
Girl, it's in you.

I can't dream,
Sleepless nights have got me bad.
The only dream I ever had
Is being with you.

I know that we can make it right,
It's gonna take a little time.
Let's not leave ourselves with no way out,
Let's not cross that line.

Remember that I made a vow
That I would never let you go.
I meant it then, I mean it now,
And I want to tell you so.

It's all a lie,
Without you.
Without you..."

-Westlife: I Don't Wanna Fight No More



"Lost and all alone,
I always thought that I could make it on my own.
Since you left I hardly make it through the day,
My tears get in the way,
And I need you back to stay.

I wander through the night
And search the world to find
The words to make it right.
All I want is just the way it used to be,
With you here close to me.
I've got to make you see

That I'm lost without your love;
Life without you isn't worth the trouble of.
I'm as helpless as a ship without a wheel,
A touch without a feel.
I can't believe it's real...

And someday soon I'll wake
And find my heart won't have to break.

Yes I'm lost without your love;
Life without you isn't worth the trouble of.
All I want is just the way it used to be,
I need you here with me,
Oh darlin' can't you see?
If we had love before,
We can have it back once more."

-Bread: Lost Without Your Love




“望着广场的时钟,妳还在我的怀里躲风。
不习惯言不由衷,沉默如何能让妳都懂。
此刻与妳相拥 也算有始有终。
祝福有许多种,心痛却尽在不言中。

请妳一定要比我幸福,才不枉费我狼狈退出。
再痛也不说苦,爱不用抱歉来弭补。
至少我能成全妳的追逐。

请记得妳要比我幸福,才值得我对自己残酷。
我默默的倒数,最后再把你看清楚,
看妳眼里的我好馍糊,慢慢被放逐。

放心去追逐妳的幸福。
别管我愿不愿,孤不孤独,都别在乎!”

-陈晓东:比我幸福


Don't you want me back? I do... very badly... =(

Monday, October 20, 2008

No More I Love You's

"No more " I love you's,"
The language is leaving me.
No more " I love you's,"
The language is leaving me in silence.
No more " I love you's,"
Changes are shifting outside the words."


-Annie Lennox: No More I Love You's



I was looking at an entry made on 7th March 2008, and upon realisation, this song's chorus came to me. Of course, the whole song isn't representative of my feelings (mostly because I have no idea what the song is really about)... just the chorus taken out of context.

*si-i-igh*

Is there really no hope left? No hope at all? At all?

=(((

I have lost the drive to look for work. I can imagine myself just rotting in a corner with maggots gnawing at parts of my flesh where fungus has grown and invaded my being. Oh, and spiderwebs too.

Do you know I wake up in the middle of the night and you're there in my mind?

In GOD We Trust

"Teach me Thy way, O Lord, teach me Thy way.
Thy guiding grace afford, teach me Thy way!
Help me to walk aright, more by faith, less by sight;
Lead me with heav’nly light, teach me Thy way.

When I am sad at heart, teach me Thy way.
When earthly joys depart, teach me Thy way!
In hours of loneliness, in times of dire distress,
In failure or success, teach me Thy way.

When doubts and fears arise, teach me Thy way.
When storms o’erspread the skies, teach me Thy way!
Shine through the cloud and rain, through sorrow, toil and pain;
Make Thou my pathway plain, teach me Thy way.

Long as my life shall last, teach me Thy way.
Where’er my lot be cast, teach me Thy way!
Until the race is run, until the journey’s done,
Until the crown is won, teach me Thy way."

-Benjamin Ramsey (1919): Teach Me Thy Way, O Lord



I was bordering on tears when this hymn was sung. I guess the 2nd and 3rd stanzas seemed to apply to me now, that's why I'm reminded to seek GOD in every circumstance.

Also, today's sermon was on Saul's demise as king over Israel, and the beginnings of the rising of David. Saul was a people's choice of a king. David was GOD's choice. In comparison of the 2, we see that GOD's plans, GOD's choice, GOD's decisions are always way better than Man's. Saul became a disappointment to the people of Israel, but David was to be hailed as one of the greatest (if not the greatest) human king. In a parallel, it shows that when we put our hopes and trust in humanly things, human choices, we're going to be disappointed. But in GOD, we can be assured of what we believe in because GOD doesn't fail us.

I guess the message is pretty clear. GOD's always there... as always.

I hope this hymn will encourage others as much as it encouraged me...

GOD bless you all.

Friday, October 17, 2008

A Day Not At Work

I took sick leave today. Why? Coz this morning, my stomach hurt so much I woke up before my alarm went off. Then I stayed in the toilet for about 20min or so... and after I came out, my legs were wobbly (I used the squatting toilet), and before long, I had to go again... and even then, it still didn't feel like I was totally flushed.

So I called Lisa and asked for sick leave.

After the toilet rushes, I lay on the sofa and fell asleep until about 11.

Woke up groggy and planned the rest of the day, assuming I wouldn't get another attack. And thankfully, I didn't!

So my day went like this: I went to Camera Hospital at Sunshine Plaza to look for old cameras, went to Bras Basah to get my quill feathers, walked to Arab St to get my Swarovski crystals, walked around in Bugis to look for a vest, went Phoon Huat to see if they've got Yoghurt flavoured syrup, then walked over to Peace Centre to take a bus home.

Came home, got started on my mask! Yay! I can't believe I bought Swarovski crystals for a mask that I'd probably only wear once. I must be crazy... but they look SO-O-O pretty!!! Oh wells...

So that's my sick (off) day today...

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"Anyone who had a love close to this
Knows what I'm saying.
Anyone who wants a dream to come true
Knows how I'm feeling.

All I can think of is you and me
Doing the things I wanna do.
All I imagine is heaven on earth;
I know it's you.

Anyone who ever kissed in the rain
Knows the whole meaning.
Anyone who ever stood in the light
Needs no explaining.

But everything more or less appears so meaningless,
Blue and cold.
Walking alone through the afternoon traffic,
I miss you so.

Anyone who felt like I do,
Anyone who wasn't ready to fall,
Anyone who loved like I do,
Knows it never really happens at all.
It's over when it's over.
What can I do about it
Now that it's over?

Everything more or less is looking so meaningless
And fades to grey.
Lying awake in an ocean of teardrops,
I float away.

Anyone who ever felt like I do,
Anyone who wasn't ready to fall,
Anyone who loved like I do,
Knows it never really happens at all.
It's over when it's over.
What can I do about it,
Now it's all over?"

-Roxette: Anyone




"I believe the sun should never set upon an argument.
I believe we place our happiness in other people's hands.
I believe that junk food tastes so good because it's bad for you.
I believe your parents did the best job they knew how to do.
I believe that beauty magazines promote low self esteem.
I believe I'm loved when I'm completely by myself alone.

I believe in Karma: what you give is what you get returned.
I believe you can't appreciate real love until you've been burned.
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side.
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye.

I believe you can't control or choose your sexuality.
I believe that trust is more important than monogamy.
I believe that your most attractive features are your heart and soul.
I believe that family is worth more than money or gold.
I believe the struggle for financial freedom is unfair.
I believe the only ones who disagree are millionaires.

I believe forgiveness is the key to your unhappiness.
I believe that wedded bliss negates the need to be undressed.
I believe that God does not endorse TV evangelists.
I believe in love surviving death into eternity."

-Savage Garden: Affirmation

Thursday, October 16, 2008

The Hunt

The past couple of days have been abit hectic at work... things to sort out, things to dig out, things to research etc etc... but all in all, still pretty boring and mundane.

Not at work, however, was still quite hectic. Going for a Masquerade Party for Daphne's birthday this Saturday. Can't find nice masks so I decided to make my own. Got my masks but now, I can't find nice feathers. So the hectic rush off work has been due to that - hunting for nice feathers. Been to Art Friend Craft and Spotlight already. The former has little stock leftover and new stock will only be in November. The latter has nicer and greater variety, but is also more expensive. So I'm still looking for more variety and low prices.

Today, the hunt continues.



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I'm glad that you have friends who support you and stand by you and encourage you and give you a shoulder to cry on. Thank GOD for these friends because they sure as hell don't just come by like that.

I wish so much I could be one of those friends...

*sigh*

It'll never be though... I should embrace reality.

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

Happy Would've-Been 8th Month

Yep... Wishing you all the happiness in the world.

Enjoy the carefree, fun, exciting student life while you can. Though stress and work and exams kick in, I'm sure you will nevertheless love uni life as it is now. But do take care of yourself, or have someone take care of you, since I won't be able to do that anymore.

GOD bless you even more abundantly...

Happy would've-been 8th month...

Saturday, October 11, 2008

Do You Remember?

"Cannot touch,
Cannot hold,
Cannot be together.

Cannot love,
Cannot kiss,
Cannot have each other.

Must be strong,
And we must let go.
Cannot say
What our hearts must know.

How can I not love you?
What do I tell my heart?
When do I not want you
Here in my arms?

How does one waltz away
From all of the memories?
How do I not miss you
When you are gone?

Cannot dream,
Cannot share
Sweet and tender moments.

Cannot feel
How we feel,
Must pretend it's over.

Must be brave,
And we must go on.
Must not say,
What we've known all along.

How can I not love you?
What do I tell my heart?
When do I not want you
Here in my arms?

How does one waltz away
From all of the memories?
How do I not miss you
When you are gone?

How do I not miss you
When you are gone?"

Joy Enriquez: How Can I Not Love You




Do you remember this song? This was our song... sorta.

Heh... but how it's sung has totally changed now. Heard it at a hawker centre today at ABC Market (Alexander Rd) and it acutely reminded me of how we started falling in love. But that's all over now... I have to be content with being "just friends"...

*sigh*

How do I not miss you when you're gone?

And more perplexing, how do you not miss me?

Thursday, October 9, 2008

别转身!

Hmm... just another song that might add a little drama to my feelings tonight... Good night people.


"If you wanna leave,
I won't beg you to stay.
And if you gotta go darling,
Maybe it's better that way.

I'm gonna be strong,
I'm gonna do fine,
Don't worry about this heart of mine.
Just walk out the door,
See if I care,
Go on and go, but

Don't turn around!
'Cause you're gonna see my heart breaking.
Don't turn around,
I don't want you seeing me cry!
Just walk away,
It's tearing me apart that you're leaving.
I'm letting you go,
But I won't let you know.

I won't miss your arms around me
Holding me tight.
And if you ever think about me,
Just know that I'll be alright.

I'm gonna be strong,
I'm gonna do fine,
Don't worry about this heart of mine.
I will survive,
I'll make it through,
I'll even learn to live without you.
But

Don't turn around!
'Cause you're gonna see my heart breaking.
Don't turn around,
I don't want you seeing me cry!
Just walk away,
It's tearing me apart that you're leaving.
I'm letting you go,
But I won't let you know.

I wish I could scream out loud,
That I love you.
I wish I could say to you
Don't go.

As he walks away,
He feels the pain growing strong.
People in your life,
They don't know what's going on.
Too proud to turn around,
He's gone.

Don't turn around..."

-Ace of Base: Don't Turn Around



To two someones who aren't in the same plight as me, but is feeling low nonetheless:

"You've got a friend in me!
You've got a friend in me!
When the road looks rough ahead,
And you're miles and miles
From your nice warm bed,
You just remember what your old pal said,
Boy, you've got a friend in me!
Yeah, you've got a friend in me!

You've got a friend in me!
You've got a friend in me!
If you've got troubles, I've got 'em too!
There isn't anything I wouldn't do for you.
We stick together and we'll see it through,
Cause you've got a friend in me.
You've got a friend in me!

Some other folks might be
A little bit smarter than I am,
Bigger and stronger too.
Maybe.
But none of them will ever love you
The way I do, it's me and you.


Boy, and as the years go by,
Our friendship will never die.
You're gonna see it's our destiny!
You've got a friend in me...
You've got a friend in me.
You've got a friend in me!"

-Randy Newman: You've Got A Friend In Me



*hugs* Take care dear friend...

Wednesday, October 8, 2008

Without You...

“轻轻地,我将离开你,
请将眼角的泪拭去。
漫漫长夜里,未来日子里,
亲爱的,你别为我哭泣。

前方的路,虽然太凄迷,
请在笑容里为我祝福。
虽然迎着风,虽然下着雨,
我在风雨之中念着你。

没有你的日子里,
我会更加珍惜自己。
没有我的岁月里,
你要保重你自己。

你问我何时归故里,
我也轻声地问自己。
不是在此时,不知在何时,
我想大约会是在冬季。”

-古璇:大约在冬季



冬季…

Singapore's 冬季 like not very far away... and it is also then that you're coming back.

Will things change for the better? Will we still smile and laugh with each other?

Maybe not.

I still don't understand, and probably never will.

*sigh*

Life is cruel.

I just want to hug my cameras...

*sob*

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On a completely different note, I've uploaded some recent pictures. Click around to find the link to my slideshow!

Tuesday, October 7, 2008

Camera Talk

Yesterday when I went to develop my roll of Centuria Chrome, I saw for the first time an actual LC-A. I was surprised that it was actually a 35mm camera coz I always thought it was a 120 format cam like the Diana and the Holga. And what surprised me even more was the size of the thing! It's small man! Of course, it's not as small as those tiny digital cameras these days. It has to, after all, accomodate a roll of film!

Anyways, it got me interested in it, so I went to read up abit on its history, how it was first made, introduced, mass-produced, celebrated, died down, discontinued, then revived again. But even more, it opened up my mind to a world of smallish film cameras that I could bring along when the Fisheye2 or the FM2n was too large to take!

So I started reading up the more popular small film cameras, and I stumbled upon a type of cameras called the half-frame camera. It takes 72 or more pictures from a normal roll of film, significantly reducing the cost of street-shooting and snapping away at anything and everything! Of these, I wanted to have a look at the Olympus Pen series, the Belomo ones, Kiev cameras too, and even Canon had a half-frame rangefinder-like camera with interchangeable lens!

That's bad news for my pockets because now I lust after a "new" old breed of cameras... Then as I read on, the half-frame didn't become so important as the final size of the camera. I loved the Minox models because they're really really tiny! Of course, my limitation is 35mm film. There are puny ones that even digital has a hard time shrinking down to, but they use special films like the 110, or the 8mm... which as far as I know, is only sold from a couple of places, and more importantly, only developed at ONE place. So if that particular place (Fee Fee, if you must know) decides to up its price, I'll have no one to turn to and my camera would become pretty useless.

Anyways, back to the point. I went to look around some of the more common used camera shops, and to my dismay, half-frame cameras are almost extinct! Almost... I found a Canon Demi with a 50mm lens and a 28mm lens. Its meter seems to work ok, but it was selling for $480.

Another camera that caught my eye was the Rollei 35S. Found a brand new, plastic-wrapped, limited edition, gold and brown one at The Camera Workshop (TCW) going for $1250!!! Can you imagine that? Wah kau... Then I found a normal silver one at P&G selling for $1350! There was another one beside it going for $320 I think... but that's the f3.5 one. The $1350 one was an f2.8. Anyways, found a Rollei 35S and a 35TE at the same place I found the Canon. They were going for $280 and $355 respectively... or at least, as far as my short-term memory serves me. And they're not even half-frames! Damnit! But they're damn cool, I tell u... Super retro.

And yesterday I got myself the urge to try deep space photography! But that would require quite specialized equipment that I wasn't ready to delve into, given that I'm living in Singapore. So the next best thing was to take photos of star trails and starry skies! Again, living in Singapore meant that it's hard to obtain such pictures due to light pollution and cloudy skies. Nevertheless, it's not impossible. Just very difficult... which makes me want to buy my D300 even more than before!!! ARGH!!!

Photography is drowning me. Its seduction too much for me to take. I lust after equipment of various capabilities. I want to fondle and caress every body and lens that I can find and wish that they were mine.

*sigh*

If only...

Monday, October 6, 2008

Itchy Fingers

Of all the topics available, I had to go and click on "Forgiveness" for my QT today... Turns out to be a whole series of discipleship curriculum. Forgiveness Part I is today's message, and it goes on all the way to Part XII!!! Knowing me, once I start on something, I would want to finish it.

Really itchy fingers man.

Why? Coz Part I is difficult enough for me to handle already... After reading it, I was like... wah la-a-au-u-u...

It's extremely difficult for me to forgive that someone, even though that person is so far away. Contrary to Dexter's MSN nick, "Forgiveness is easier when the person is far away", I think it would be easier if I punched the person and said sorry, than to just simmer in my anger and try to turn down the fire. Grrrr...

GOD help me to forgive others as YOU have forgiven me. Nothing is unforgiveable if I have YOUR love and courage and grace. Please help me to alleviate this feeling of resentment and hatred; release me from my own prison of bitterness.

Sunday, October 5, 2008

Everytime...

"Every time I think of you,
I get a shot right through
Into a bolt of blue.
It's no problem of mine,
But it's a problem I find
Living the life that I can't leave behind.

There's no sense in telling me.
The wisdom of a fool won't set you free;
But that's the way that it goes,
And it's what nobody knows,
And every day my confusion grows.

Every time I see you falling,
I get down on my knees and pray.
I'm waiting for the final moment
You say the words that I can't say.

I feel fine and I feel good;
I feel like I never should.
Whenever I get this way,
I just don't know what to say.
Why can't we be ourselves like we were yesterday?

I'm not sure what this could mean.
I don't think you're what you seem.
I do admit to myself
That if I hurt someone else,
Then I'll never see just what we're meant to be."

-Frente: Bizarre Love Triangle



"Everytime I think of you,
I always catch my breath.
And I'm still standing here
And you're miles away,
And I'm wonderin' why you left.
And there's a storm that's raging
Through my frozen heart tonight.

I hear your name in certain circles,
And it always makes me smile.
I spend my time thinkin' about you,
And it's almost driving me wild.
And there's a heart that's breaking
Down this long distance line tonight.

I ain't missing you at all,
Since you've been gone away.
I ain't missing you,
No matter what I might say.

There's a message in the wire,
And I'm sending you this signal tonight.
You don't know how desperate I've become,
And it looks like I'm losing this fight.
In your world I have no meaning,
Though I'm trying hard to understand.
And it's my heart that's breaking
Down this long distance line tonight.

I ain't missing you at all,
Since you've been gone away.
I ain't missing you,
No matter what my friends say.

And there's a message that I'm sending out,
Like a telegraph to your soul.
And if I can't bridge this distance,
Stop this heartbreak overload.

I ain't missing you,
I ain't missing you,
I can lie to myself...

And there's a storm that's raging
Through my frozen heart tonight."

John Waite: Missing You



"Lay a whisper on my pillow,
Leave the winter on the ground.
I wake up lonely,
There's air of silence
In the bedroom and all around.

Touch me now,
I close my eyes
And dream away.

It must have been love,
But it's over now.
It must have been good,
But I lost it somehow.
It must have been love,
But it's over now.
From the moment we touched
'til the time had run out.

Make-believing we're together,
That I'm sheltered by your heart.
But in and outside I've turned to water,
Like a teardrop in your palm.

And it's a hard Christmas day,
I dream away.

It must have been love,
But it's over now.
it was all that I wanted,
Now I'm living without.
It must have been love,
But it's over now.
It's where the water flows,
It's where the wind blows."

-Roxette: It Must Have Been Love

Friday, October 3, 2008

Blur...

I was looking for this song in my head yesterday, actually. Somehow it eluded me last night. Luckily, 阿妹's song says it just as well, if not better...


"It's over.
You don't need to tell me.
I hope you're with someone
Who makes you feel safe in your sleeping tonight.
I won't kill myself trying to stay in your life.
I've got no distance left to run

When you see me, please,
Turn your back and walk away.
I don't wanna see you,
'cause I know the dreams that you keep,
That's where we meet.
When you're coming down,
think of me here.
I've got no distance left to run.

It's over.
I knew it would end this way.
I hope you're with someone
Who makes you feel that this life, is a life,
Who settles down, stays around,
Spends more time with you.


I've got no distance left to run."


-Blur: No Distance Left To Run


It's not an accurate song though. I only thought of this song for 2 lines. You can go figure out which 2 lines.

Anyways, I'll be ok. Life goes on. Like the song says, I won't kill myself trying to stay in your life. Neither will I kill myself staying out of your life.

Life goes on...

... and on...

... and on...

...

“谁还记得
是谁先说永远的爱我?
以前的一句话
是我们以后的伤口。

过了太久
没人记得当初那些温柔。
我和你手牵手,
说要一起走到最后。

我们都忘了
这条路走了多久。
心中是清楚的,
有一天,有一天都会停的。

让时间说真话,
虽然我也害怕,
在天黑了以后,
我们都不知道会不会有遗憾。

我们都累了,
却没办法往回走。
两颗心都迷惑,
怎么说,怎么说都没有救。

亲爱的为什么?
也许你也不懂。
两个相爱的人
等对方先说找分开的理由。

谁还记得
爱情开始变化的时候?
我和你的眼中
看见了不同的天空。
走的太远
终于走到分岔路的路口,
是不是你和我
要有两个相反的梦?

谁还记得
是谁先说永远的爱我?
以前的一句话
是我们以后的伤口。

过了太久
没人记得当初那些温柔。
我和你手牵手,
说要一起走到最后。

我和你手牵手,
说要一起走到最后...”

张惠妹:记得



When I was still with Sarah, she loved this song because it was so sad. But apart from that, she's got personal reasons why the song touched her so much. I guess when I broke up with her, that was another reason why the song meant even more to her.

Now, I too have a reason to sing this song. I wish I didn't and it would only be a sad and moving song to sing to. Alas, such songs always touch our hearts in ways that we really really don't want to.

Reading it through again, I guess anyone who's ever fallen out of love can relate to the sadness in the lyrics...

Wednesday, October 1, 2008

Songs for a Public Holiday...

"我听到楼下有车子停下的声音,
然后是一阵好久的平静,
你才舍得他离去。
爱情再次回到我这里。
睡不著我开了电视想有点声音,
却听到门前你的深呼吸。
晚安说得很小心很努力,
也许像你说的朋友而已。
你却一再避开我眼睛,
如果真的只是朋友而已,
为什么他名字你从不提起?

他送你回来以后,
我常一个人到外头走走。
我以为我至少可以想通一个烂理由。

他送你回来以后,
我假装没有太多的难受。
这样有一天你真的要走不必我点头。"

-许志安:他送你回来以后



"It's all because of you,
I'm feeling sad and blue.
You went away,
Now my life is just a rainy day.
And I love you so,
How much you'll never know.
You've gone away and left me lonely.

Untouchable memories
Seem to keep haunting me.
Another love so true,
That once turned all my gray skies blue.
But you disappeared,
Now my eyes are filled with tears,
And I'm wishing you were here with me.

Soaked with love are my thoughts of you.
Now that you're gone
I just don't know what to do.

If only you were here,
You'd wash away my tears,
The sun would shine once again,
You'd be mine, all mine.
But in reality,
You and I will never be.
'Cause you took your love away from me.

Girl, I don't know what I did
To make you leave me.
But what I do know,
Is that since you've been gone,
There's such an emptiness inside.
I'm wishing you'd come back to me."

-4PM: Sukiyaki